Welcome to 2013 one and all. 2012 was quite a year for myself and just about everyone I know. From businesses closing and new ones opening, to babies born, to marriages falling apart, and new loves blooming, this last year was seemingly the most eventful in quite a while for my circle of friends. Life is what we make of it, and we all do with these changes from 2012 is entirely up to us.
I for one, plan to embrace the change. I plan to draw upon the enormous reservoir of love and friendship and support that I experienced last year and allow that to assist in filling my hot air balloon of adventure that will be 2013. I finally feel as if I can breathe again, and feel ready to take on some new resolutions and refocus my attention again on some aspects of life that bring me great joy.
One of the things that I will be adding back into my life will be this blog. I had let it go at the end of last year because it simply was too much to handle when the rest of life was still completely out of whack. I also realized that I don't think that blogging (and yes..eventually podcasting) will ever be a daily event for me and that's perfectly fine. I can see at least a weekly post, but certainly not the daily posts that I was striving for at one small stretch in time. Perhaps two posts a week would satisfy the need I have to share my thoughts and my own small journey. As long as I am creating, I will be fulfilled.
In the spirit of the day, I have started to compile my resolutions for the year. I have a small list, as do most people, so let's start with #1 for today.
Creating art has been a passion of mine since as far back as I can remember. After a long enough hiatus, I have returned to painting. I have the opportunity to show for my paintings in April that don't even exist yet, so it is time to get to making the donuts! I completed my first painting in years for a good friend of mine and it felt so amazing and natural to put a brush back into my hands. It was exciting to have the guts to finally let go and embrace the chance to paint in a purely abstract manner. This was my first swing at it, and she loved it which is really all that matters.
The next pieces will be quite smaller, but abstract as well. I need to trust and allow myself to create in a manner that is unfamiliar and uncomfortable. That's where it always gets good. I am also going to be creating through this blog, as well as through writing again on a regular basis. For me it's all about the discipline of the daily activity. When I'm creating daily I feel like I'm exercising that muscle and making it stronger. I am also going to attempt a photo a day on Instagram. At the end of the year I might even make a book of the images for myself and see how the year looks in a visual timeline. I am not a natural photographer by any means, and it too makes me incredibly uncomfortable. Life for me begins at the end of my comfort zone, so this will be a good exercise. Follow along that daily journey if you wish on Instagram. Just look for John Tusher and you will see where I'm up to. I had an amazing shaman tell me once that he saw only artwork surrounding me. He said that I embraced my creativity through many avenues, but that creating my own artwork was the most important gift for myself and others. I admit that I kind of poo-pooed that statement, but as time goes on, I feel like he may have been absolutely correct. I'm excited and terrified and the prospect of creating again, but I know that I need to do it regularly be my most authentic self.